Got to go back to work

1st off....I am thankful to have a job,,,,it isn't my calling. I don't know what is....but I gotta go.

Thanks giving eve

My favorite American holiday....around the time of my birthday. .....damn a hard year...didn't think I would make it. I am complicated.  I think I am hard to love and like. Well I am easy to like when I put it on....lately I don't put it on. I am a daughter. ..a mother...and an ex wife. That is what I have most identified with most of my life. Now I am still those identifies but I don't feel as comfortable with that intro. Who am I! I am still formulating

12 Years a Slave

Wow!   I just saw the movie and I am so drained with sadness. To know this experience of slavery for just a few hours was terrible. After seeing a movie like that I don't know what to do with it. I am beyond angry at the position of my ancestry......it is what I live with each day. To say there isn't a day that goes by that I don't realise my ethnicity and what the majority think of it. This country was built on the blood sweat tears and sorrows of my people. It will never ever be equal.

Heart massage

Tonight I took a trip inside myself. It was a little noisy at first.  Then I just let it all be and my heart got a massAge and I was flying.  No drugs here....just being.

Patience

"Patience creates confidence, decisiveness, and a rational outlook, which eventually leads to success" - Brian Adams

This qoute for the day from my planner powerfully resonated with me. I have no patience for me, my failures, falling off whatever wagon I am trying to stay on, when I say the wrong thing or take the "wrong" action. I am SOOOO hard on myself.
This quote pretty much wraps up what I have not been for myself.
Well today I stop...because if the quote is true, and it does feel true to me, then those qualities I struggle with are revealed and I can change it....instantly.....with my thinking.
I can be patient with me cause I know I don't quit.  I keep not trying but I keep doing even when I have a few breaks.

A BREAKTHROUGH!
AMEN

To hope.....football season is around the corner. I found these lovely flowers growing in a place that was a surprise.

When it's Over

Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over it became a butterfly.... a tweet from Deepok Chopra

Where am I traveling?

Someone I admire a great deal once said "there is no excuse to own something in today's world, be it a a small business, your home, a something something something, or a blog.  Well I don't own anything - I used to co own a house with the bank but I don't have that.  But I do co-own a blog with Google.  I started this to  inspire women who want to travel but can't, well don't but we all can and now I will share travels through my life.  Me .....traveling through my sometimes feeling purposeful-less, lost, why am I here life.  So where the hell am I going today?

Today it feels like no where and it is a little after 4 pm.  Done for the day.

Mexico

12/14/12

I finally had the opportunity to use my passport!!!!!  On December 14-21, 2012 I and my best friend went to Cancun Mexico.  We stayed in Playa Del Carmen at the Mayan Palace.  The flight with Delta was surprisingly prompt and comfortable.  For anyone traveling to Cancun Mexico, be prepared for timeshare sales people, shysters and most people who pretend to be helpful but are really wanting to sell you something.

Since I was ‘brand new’, I was not prepared for the aggressive sales pitches; I was almost captured by a time seller, but we got away (thanks to my friend).  If you are staying at one of the resorts, be sure to know if they provide a shuttle...if they do, get the details on their uniform, the description of their shuttle, and find out the times they pick up.  Go STRAIGHT outside and you should see many resort shuttle services - look for yours, make sure they have your name and get in the shuttle.

The view during the ride to the resort looked much like some of the less populated areas of south Florida.  Once we arrived at the resort it was like being transported to a mini paradise - like the ones you see in magazines.  The grounds were elaborate and well maintained, palm trees, water fountains, flowers, tropical plants and the weather was perfect - in between warm and hot with a nice breeze.  The weather was not anything I could compare to.  However, I was very tired...going through the flight, customs, the shysters in the airport, and being dressed for winter weather I was hungry and exhausted.  But I was very excited, I was in a new country in beautiful surroundings, traveling with someone I loved, it was perfect.  I could not wait to explore, ONLY after I got something to eat AND get into some summer clothes.  Unfortunately, we were again caught up with someone posing as a “helper” for the resort, that turned out to be a timeshare rep – but we got a free excursion. 

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