I hate my job

Confirmation

Today it was confirmed that I need to continue pursuing PM. IT was a tough day but the difference was I saw areas where I can grow and know the immediate steps take a change. Thank you GOD for your confirmation. 

With my best friend

Me!
Most times you must do it alone.  You were born alone and you will die alone.  So why not make friends with it. Yes loved ones were or may be there during birth and death but you do it alone really.
I have passive aggressive tendencies.  When I am done....most times I am burnt....so I am threw with you and you don't even know it till you cross me again. HAS IT WORKED FOR ME? 👎🐆

So....

I am.       not.      a man.
I can     do.    alot of what a man can do. But not all..........not alot of what a man does
A lot of what a man can do I can't and don't want to. I can't relate on alot of levels. But I gave birth to 2 men. I married their father...I pray they got or are getting what a man should get from their father. But I am afraid they are learning by their OWN mistakes or.... by.... my mistakes of not being a man....or their fathers... of not being MAN......I don't.... or will not speak...... or speculate to that cause I didn't have one and .......  Or not being enough of a woman because I was trying to be a man cause my mother didn't get it either.   That is another story but she was the the best woman\father I know. I gave birth.... gave my love (what I had)
nurturing and support. .....then gave more financial support cause I know how to work damn it..... like a mule...but then I felt guilty cause I felt I should be there more emotionally. You know Like a mother...woman......then I switched back to mommy dearest and
Then the lights were off....tires bad
...no car...go to food bank .... then had to go back to being no a man. DAMN..... I am bipolar?  A woman in a man's body....no a man in a woman's body.....no I love the man partz....but in me not having them ..... I am a  wo-man. (Pause cause I love them man parts and the woman Parts and being loved nurtured and having a real MANN Love me). But I am bossy aggressive hard like a man but with a vagina.  Imma bitch.....no don't call me a bitch cause I am a woman aggressive organized...feminine. ...pretty soft and hard. ..clean....sweet warm....  but I could be Mean Joe Greene .....No you are an angry BLACK WOMAN. .....no cause i am soft and woman--'''ly with my MANN....a real man not a boy.....but when i go there......Okay I am just trying to live be expressive get my point across and be happy. ...no you is CRAZY girl....now imma a girl going through menopause. ...........pause (that's another damn story...cause i felt grown at about 33)#!!!

Sunday morning movie

Nothing better than watching a matinee in the morning for 5 bucks.  Theatre is empty but huge cause its opening weekend. Brad Pitt one of my favorite actors......behind Denzel ofcourse but a favorite nevertheless. 
I caught Denzel last week in the week...that was great too. All by myself with me and I.....my best friend.
Fury!

Amen

Psalm 63:3-4 () 3 Because your steadfast love is better than life,my lips will praise you. 4 So I will bless you as long as I live;in your name I will lift up my hands. #Bible http://mydailybible.org/dv/esv/2014-03-06.htm

I am still here!

Today's fortune cookie, "Mend the first break, kill the first snake, and conquer EVERYTHING you undertake". I am still feeling hopeful and more directed today the 5th day of March 2014. Psalms 27 my battle cry each morning this month so far. GOD is GREAT! And He is in me so SO AM I.