So....

I am.       not.      a man.
I can     do.    alot of what a man can do. But not all..........not alot of what a man does
A lot of what a man can do I can't and don't want to. I can't relate on alot of levels. But I gave birth to 2 men. I married their father...I pray they got or are getting what a man should get from their father. But I am afraid they are learning by their OWN mistakes or.... by.... my mistakes of not being a man....or their fathers... of not being MAN......I don't.... or will not speak...... or speculate to that cause I didn't have one and .......  Or not being enough of a woman because I was trying to be a man cause my mother didn't get it either.   That is another story but she was the the best woman\father I know. I gave birth.... gave my love (what I had)
nurturing and support. .....then gave more financial support cause I know how to work damn it..... like a mule...but then I felt guilty cause I felt I should be there more emotionally. You know Like a mother...woman......then I switched back to mommy dearest and
Then the lights were off....tires bad
...no car...go to food bank .... then had to go back to being no a man. DAMN..... I am bipolar?  A woman in a man's body....no a man in a woman's body.....no I love the man partz....but in me not having them ..... I am a  wo-man. (Pause cause I love them man parts and the woman Parts and being loved nurtured and having a real MANN Love me). But I am bossy aggressive hard like a man but with a vagina.  Imma bitch.....no don't call me a bitch cause I am a woman aggressive organized...feminine. ...pretty soft and hard. ..clean....sweet warm....  but I could be Mean Joe Greene .....No you are an angry BLACK WOMAN. .....no cause i am soft and woman--'''ly with my MANN....a real man not a boy.....but when i go there......Okay I am just trying to live be expressive get my point across and be happy. ...no you is CRAZY girl....now imma a girl going through menopause. ...........pause (that's another damn story...cause i felt grown at about 33)#!!!

Sunday morning movie

Nothing better than watching a matinee in the morning for 5 bucks.  Theatre is empty but huge cause its opening weekend. Brad Pitt one of my favorite actors......behind Denzel ofcourse but a favorite nevertheless. 
I caught Denzel last week in the week...that was great too. All by myself with me and I.....my best friend.
Fury!