Thanks giving eve

My favorite American holiday....around the time of my birthday. .....damn a hard year...didn't think I would make it. I am complicated.  I think I am hard to love and like. Well I am easy to like when I put it on....lately I don't put it on. I am a daughter. ..a mother...and an ex wife. That is what I have most identified with most of my life. Now I am still those identifies but I don't feel as comfortable with that intro. Who am I! I am still formulating

12 Years a Slave

Wow!   I just saw the movie and I am so drained with sadness. To know this experience of slavery for just a few hours was terrible. After seeing a movie like that I don't know what to do with it. I am beyond angry at the position of my ancestry......it is what I live with each day. To say there isn't a day that goes by that I don't realise my ethnicity and what the majority think of it. This country was built on the blood sweat tears and sorrows of my people. It will never ever be equal.

Heart massage

Tonight I took a trip inside myself. It was a little noisy at first.  Then I just let it all be and my heart got a massAge and I was flying.  No drugs here....just being.